I just wanted to share a journal entry that I wrote the other day. Just an invitation into my brain.
“I am blessed.
To be here. To be a witness and a participant. To be free. It makes me smile each time I peek through the curtains of life and see what really is. How many times have I missed it? Have I allowed myself to believe that things were any different than exactly how they were. I am blessed to have found a way to the truth.
I am the power in the universe. The glue of the world, the electric spark of creation. I feel the energy coursing through my veins down my arms and out my fingertips. I feel it grow and expand inside. Sick of being held back and denied. Like a built pressure ready to explode, the power within me is ready for me to claim my abilities and go. It is time to create, to see, to hear, to share. The power that has been waiting for me with arms thrown wide, outstretched in welcome. It is a dare to smile and step into the unknown with the knowledge that I am supported. That what I need is there. That my feet will land on solid ground.
The not-knowing is exciting. It could be anything. There are infinite possibilities and all of them are for me. There will be challenges and pain and joy and happiness. And through it all there will be a steady calm. The center will remain as it is while the illusion of life flickers and flows around from the center. I can remain steady and participate fully in what is offered. No fear. All is as it should be.
The excitement of living a full life creeps out of me. The possibilities grow with the knowledge of being supported.
I no longer fear falling short of perfection. Perfection is not and never has been real. It is made up. There is no perfect cup. There is only a cup that holds liquid or doesn’t. A plate with a crack or one without. A pen has ink or it does not. There is no perfect pen or hair or clothes or action to strive for. A pen without ink is not good or bad, it just is.
I am worthy, I am kind, I am as I am. I am ready, I am already powerful. I am changing the world. I am saving lives. I am making a difference. Right now, sitting on my couch under a blanket filling the pages of my journal I am fulfilling my purpose.
I am blessed.”